It’s been a tough couple of weeks. I’m just beginning Summer Session, which means I’ve been on this journey for 32 weeks, without a break. I hate to admit, but I’m a little tired – tired of webinars, tired of cohort meetings, tired of homework – just tired. Bigger than that, I’m tired of being “a doctoral student” and anxious to be a Doctor.
Over the last two weeks, several promotions have been announced at work – none to me. To be honest, it’s been difficult to watch. I love my colleagues and am truly happy for them, but it’s difficult knowing that my efforts, experience and expertise cannot be rewarded because I’m missing a few letters behind my name. (Yes, I’ve been told this). It’s a little disheartening.
I sincerely value the lessons I’m learning along this doctoral journey. Over the last two weeks, however, I’ve struggled with wanting to move forward quickly. This is an experience that shouldn’t be rushed. In fact, most programs won’t allow you to rush. The journey is just as important critical to the outcome.
It’s more important to become Dr. Karavedas, than to be Dr. Karavedas.
Transformation takes place on the inside and the outside. My motivation cannot be focused solely on the rewards available once I have more letters behind my name. Fortunately, someone I respect reminded me of this. She encouraged me to fully engage in all aspects of this journey and benefit from this process. Embrace the changes occurring to my personal and professional growth.
I’m nearly at the halfway point. In a few weeks, I’ll be selecting a Dissertation Chair. This time next year, I will advance to candidacy – becoming a Doctoral Candidate, and no longer a Doctoral Student. It’s a journey that is both very long and very short. But, I’m walking in it … one step at a time.